wierd

"Iam more peaceful though iam not happy.."

how is this happening ? huh !

random thoughts

It's been around 18 months since i left my home, my parents, my friends..everything.
There was never a clear aim when i was coming to usa...Why i was coming to usa...What i want to do here...Nothing was clear...
I was not sure if i came here for dollars...But iam sure that the white skin, tall buildings and cars fascinated me more than any thing else...
It was a smooth transition for me when i came here.. I had bunch of friends with me..Time flew with them...Before even i realized time had come for all of us to move on and take up "responsibilities".

From then on life in USA had been an eye opener to me...
It had been another learning phase for me..
Many a times God teaches us in many ways..But we fail to learn due to many reasons...
He shows us the way...Infact he shows us all the possible ways..
He leaves us at that point..It is up to us which way we chose...

During this period the same thing happened to me..He showed me many things..

My parents taught me that MAN is the highest form of God's creation...
We all should have been blessed to take human forms...
But what has happened today is that we all are degrading the spirit of human form..
Probably we make God feel embarrassed..It is not God...
I think we our selves degrade us...We fall to such low levels that even GOD cant help us...
What a pity isn't it ?

How can some one not go and see their parents for the last time.. ?
How can monetary issues come in the way of parents... ?
How can some one talk ill of some one else all the time... ?
How can we help others half heartedly.. ?
How can we be so fake all the time.. ?

I was not used to this kind of life style..
I always thought all the people are good...
This experience taught me that Man is always Man...
He can never be different..He can never even strive to be different...
He will never improve...He will only be a sheep in the flock wandering without aim...

These thoughts and many more disturbed me tremendously more than anything else..
More than my own professional front...

I even don't know if iam over reacting to the situation..
But i know for sure i dont want to repeat same mistakes..